Won't Get Fooled Again

Finally, the Mathematic papers are over. Don't ask, I can only tell you guys that Paper 6 kinda sucked for me. Went Pavilion for a movie today. Pathetically, alone. Thought of watching The Coffin, but ended up watching Tropic Thunder instead because the screening time available for The Coffin on the time of my visit was at 8:30 P.M, which is very very late & I couldn't possibly make it. So I bought a ticket for Tropic Thunder & had my lunch at ThaiExpress.

Next to RedBox Plus, as ya'll can see..


Where I had my lunch.


View from where I was sitting, while waiting for my fried rice & tomyam soup.


The delicious plate of fried rice.


The most appetizing tomyam seafood soup I've ever had.

Err, wait a minute. Did I just said tomyam SEAFOOD soup? I was wondering since when chicken is classified under seafood? There were slices of chicken meat in the soup!!

Overally, the food there is quite good, but not value for money. Kinda expensive, I'd rather go Island's Bistro for the ambience & Indonesian food there.

Tropic Thunder, not as good as I expected it to be. Uhh it could be caused by all the censoring done before being released to the big screens in Malaysia. In fact, too much censoring until I can't actually understand what the characters are trying to say. I'd rate the movie 3.9 out of 5 stars for the cinema version, maybe 4.3 for the pirated DVD version. Hahah. Still kinda disappointed for being unable to watch the personally long-awaited The Coffin. Maybe some other day.. Hmm..

Remember CSi : Miami? The opening of every single episode of the sci-fi drama.. Yeah.. Won't Get Fooled Again, by The Who.

-MXV-

ひかりなでしこ

Left home early in the morning today in a mission to 'steal' my own car. Yeah, the level of desperateness to get to college early & to be able to use the car for the rest of the day. My dad was telling me, making up all kinds of stories so that I'll pass the keys for him to use the car THE WHOLE DAY. No way, I'm not gonna let that happen & I can't afford to be late for Biology practical paper, so I sneaked out as early as 7 in the morning, reached college at 7:15 A.M., parked my car in front of the guard house & continued revising till around 7:45. Gotta get into the college earlier to check whether there's any quarantine session after my paper, as there'll be another batch of students that will be taking the same paper at 11:30 A.M., about an hour after our session.

The practical started at 8:30 A.M.. Heck, it was easy & I've been wasting my time trying to stuff every single complicated experiment there is into my brain last night. The questions were pretty straightforward, & there were no long-winded experiments to be carried out. We're only told to prepare a few onion epidermis slides before viewing them under the microscope to see if the cells were plasmolysed. I completed the whole paper in a little more than an hour, & spent the next hour messing around with the microscope. I rechecked the question paper 5 times, & then prepared slides of my own hair before viewing it under the microscope. Of the 3 slides that I've made using my own hair, 2 of them had severe splitted ends. LoLz.

We were sent into the quarantine room & the lecturer instructed us to stay in there until 12:20 P.M.. I don't see the point of quarantining the students when they were allowed to use their mobile phones. Questions leaked to the students from second batch as soon as the first batch finishes. I was sleepy all the while we were in the room, but am unable to take a good rest because of the noisy students.

Went to the Maxis Centre in Jaya Jusco to unblock my SIM card, but I was told by the guy at the counter that the reason I could not use my SIM card was not because it was blocked, but because of the incomplete registration when I first recovered it from there. See how efficient are the services in Malaysia? Zzz.. Anyway, my SIM card is now unblocked, friends & family can start SMS-ing me your names & phone numbers. Don't give me a missed call, or else I won't know who you are.

By the way, I'll be going for a movie tomorrow, after Mathematics Paper 6. Err.. Not confirmed, but 90% possibility. The Coffin, perhaps? If there's anyone that wanna follow, just tell me.. SMS me, alright?

ひかりなでしこ ( Hikari Nadeshiko ) [ Eric Mouquet Remix ] by 島みやえい子. It's the same dude that made the Deep Forest remix for Mell's Repeat. Not sure how you guys would rate it, but I find the song rather relaxing. And oh, this is classified under J-Techno/J-Trance. Enjoy.

-MXV-

說好的幸福呢

My mom told me that I should get a better phone for myself after getting pissed off when she was unable to reach me yesterday. I gotta admit that the Nokia 1200 sucks in some way, and the only advantage it had is the freaking torchlight, and the phone will restart itself at least 4-5 times a day. My phone restarted itself in the afternoon and I didn't noticed that until I got home. Then my mom was screaming & scolding me for not answering the phone. She claimed that she had called me numerous times but I did not pick up the phone. I received the missed call SMS notification shortly after, & she wasn't lying. She called me for about 15 times, but my phone didn't ring at all.

And I did get another phone for myself today after checking the time & venue for Biology practical paper tomorrow. Gotta be a little cheap at choosing a new phone since my mom is going to pay for the phone. THIS, is what we call subsidising.. Hahaha. Initially I was planning to get the Sony Ericsson T280i, since it's kinda cheap & has got most of the functions that I need, but the memory of the phone is a little small, at an unexpandable, non-memory card 10 MBs. The phone is selling at RM 300, a good price for a phone loaded with basic functions, but I need a little more than that. So I chose the G502.


2.0 MP camera, with 32 MB internal memory & 128 MB memory card at RM 480. Recently released by Sony Ericsson, this is the cheapest & the latest phone I can find. I was actually first mesmerized by it's bold design, then I came to admire the specifications & price of the phone. I recommend this phone for someone who wish to upgrade to a not-so-expensive piece. Pros : Nice big screen with 2.0 MP camera, memory card (M2) supportable up to 4 GB, good sound, sleek design. Cons : No camera flash, phone is a little slow, confusing keypad.

I saw Ms. Christina in college today, she heard about the robbery case. She told me to go for a flower bath or 'mandi bunga' to wash away all my bad luck, but I wonder if it'll actually work? Heh. Me, continue being unfortunate when the entire base of my left shoe ripped off today, which included the outsole & midsole. Sigh.. It's not that bad if I'm having my car with me at that time, at least I'd be able to drive back home & change a pair of shoes before going out again. But the shoe just chose to rip itself into half on the wrong day & I was left miserable, dragging the other half of the shoe for the rest of the day.

Nevermind about that. I'm starting to get used to it already. 說好的幸福呢 [ Shuo Hao De Xing Fu Ne ], by Jay Chou. Correct me if I'm wrong about the title, my chinese ain't that good. Enjoy.

-MXV-

The Door Is Open

I've promised myself tons of times, over & over again not to write about racial issues in Malaysia, but I just couldn't help it after what happened last night. Gene' & I were playing DotA, & when the opponent team started losing, we saw profanities & racial remarks splurting out from the opponents. Common words & phrases like "cina babi" (Chinese are pigs) and stuffs like that. I'm truly disappointed with the kind of attitude we have despite living in a multi-racial country such as Malaysia.

First of all, I'm not making a statement that ALL Malaysians are racist. No. Not all Malays are racists, not all Chinese are racists, not all Indians are racists. I do have a few friendly & open-minded Malay friends that are really nice, and a couple of Indian friends which I still keep in touch with to date. They rarely or never bring up racial issues, an act which deserves my respects & praises. We are of different colours & we came from different backgrounds, yet we can still live in harmony & make good friends with each other. What I don't get is, majority of these racism practitioners are stubborn, comparable to that of my maid. Telling them not to be racist is impossible because it's in their blood to be racist. Telling my maid not to feed the stray cats is also impossible because she love cats (for some reason, I don't know why).

What I meant by 'it's in their blood' is that the way they were raised in their childhood. Parents play a big role in determining their children's future, and are also their role models. I dare you guys to not admit that for at least once in your life, your parents told you not to trust Indians because they are liars, not to believe in Chinese because they are cunning, or not to mix with Malays because they bring bad influences. Swear that in your God's name, can you? Of course you can't, because it's the truth. Yes, those advices by our parents are for our own good, but do note that this is the 21st century that we're living in. They were born in the Tunku Abdul Rahman's era, or V.T. Sambanthan's era. Not Yap Ah Loy's era, or else your parents are too old to be still living. We will have to be smart enough to differentiate & distinguish between the right & the wrong. I do recall my parents telling me not to mix with Indians, but I don't see any harm in making an extra friend & learning his culture. This continued until today where I had finally changed my parents' views on other races.

Malaysia is a racially-diversed, multi-religious society, where we DO need mutual respect from each other to keep the country peaceful & prosperous. To think of it, it's kinda lame when racism exists even in games. Gene' & I were bombarded by all the hurtful & unpleasant words throughout the game, yet we tried our best to remain silent. Where would you eventually get by arguing with racist brainless retards like them? Nowhere. It's a lose-lose situation, so why fight & argue when we know it'll be better if we respect each other? Regardless of skin colour, we're all human & are equal on the inside.

Please, READ the post over & over again, maybe a hundred times until you can memorise every single line of what I've wrote if your fingers are itching to post a comment inciting hatred & racism, although I doubt that the commentor will do it. I am prepared for your views on this issue, but please ensure that what you are about to say makes sense. I'm so tired of people commenting 'smartly', and when everything is explained to them there will be no response from them, not even an apology for starting a thread of dumb & untruthful comments before reading the post thoroughly. So let me apologise first if I've offended some of you through this post. I know I'm a little straightforward when it comes to blogging, but that's me & my thoughts & this is my blog about them.

Let's take a break with a slow song, just for today. The tone of the track is kinda sad, well matches my sad & emo mood.. Hmm.. The Door Is Open, by Øystein Sevåg. Yeah.. The door to my heart is always open to you, my dear.. Sigh.

-MXV-

Repeat

Well, as miserable & nonsense as it may sound, but I'm staying up 'early' now, watching all three CSi episodes back to back on AXN. Yep, CSi Supreme Sunday, 3 hours non-stop of CSi Miami, N.Y., & Vegas. I am that of a big fan of the CSi(s), but that's not just the reason why I'm not sleeping. Usually if I miss an episode, I won't bother to sacrifice my sleep just for the sake of watching the repeat of it, no. I stayed up tonight, or rather this morning, for a reason. Yea yea.. Emo, again..

The Internet speed is killing me. Downloads will never exceed 10 KB/s, which really sucks if you're an avid downloader like me. Heh. 23 downloads, over 5 GBs of songs and movies at once, yet I'm getting a total of less than 10 KB/s from ALL of the downloads. I used to get at least 50-60 KB/s, and then the guys at TMnet screwed up & the download speed began to decrease. It's funny how we pay a constant RM 88 per month for the broadband service, yet we're getting unconstant speeds, and slower as the longer we subscribe to it. Is this another business trick to persuade users into upgrading into their more expensive package which they claim is faster, or are they simply not doing their job by not providing us with what we paid for? Yeah, Malaysian lines are good for upload speeds, mine could even reach up to 160 KB/s on uTorrent, but what's the point when viewing webpages on my broadband is comparable to the speed of my dial-up Jaring I had few years back?

I know, my posts are getting a little on the boring side lately. No pictures, less outings.. Then you guys might be able to imagine my life based on my posts. Heh.. Time is moving so slowly~!!! End the exam already!! Most probably I'll be going to Singapore after the A2 examinations. For some reasons, I love Singapore more than Malaysia. LoL.

-I miss you so badly!!! It's been quite some time since the last I saw you, & I really wanna see you again.. Sigh..-

Repeat (Deep Forest Remix) - Mell.

-MXV-

Pennies In My Pocket

Alright, there are several movies that I wanna catch by the end of this month. One of it would be the self highly-anticipated Thai horror, The Coffin. Yeah, trying to scare the crap out of myself after the Biology & Mathematics paper end of this week. There's another Thai horror; Burn, premiering on the same day as The Coffin. It's about 2 ladies trying to find the story behind their mothers' death, caused by fire starting from their own bodies. Very interesting, as I've always wanted to know how spontaneous human combustions can happen. Then there's Quantum of Solace (not Quantum of Shoelace), the up & coming addition to the long running series of James Bond. Hmm.. Anyone wanna join me for The Coffin/Burn this weekend?

Ahh, Deepavali is here again. Don't you guys feel lucky to be living in Malaysia, a multi-racial country that celebrates all kinds of religious festivals & stuffs like that? Of course, it doesn't matter what colour are you; only the public holidays matters. LoL. Kati came back, & we went for a little 'yumcha' session at B.R.J. about an hour ago. As usual, some chit-chat before DotA at tBun. Hmm.. Saw a few pretty hot girls too, but all TAKEN!!! Sighh...

I was particularly shocked when Nicholas told me about something I wrote a few weeks back in my blog about the birthday girls. About me writing about Elaine being a lesbian and things like that?? I think you'll need to recheck on what I wrote, coz' I have very good memory on the things I blog about, and I'll never write untruthful things. Re-read the post, AGAIN, please. Don't worry, it's not the first time someone talk before reading what I wrote properly either. And you don't go around telling Elaine that I'm labelling her as a lesbo before having any solid evidence inhand. I think you mixed up some fact there? Nevermind..

Pennies In My Pocket, by Emilio Estefan. I'm suddenly in the mood for some Latino music. Hmm.. Enjoy.

-MXV-

Lovestoned / I Think She Knows

........and I woke up this morning to my own sweats. I had a nightmare, a bad dream, of something bad happening to you. Of course, I can't afford to lose you.. Spent the rest half of the day worrying about you, sent a SMS but you didn't reply. At least by seeing you online on MSN convinced me enough that nothing bad or stupid has happened to you..

Bought a phone for myself today. Nevermind that it's a cheapskate's phone. Black & white, monotone type. Heh.. And hey, there's a flashlight on top of my phone too. Cool. Introducing the all-old Nokia 1200, where colour doesn't matter anymore. Friends & family, you may start to leave phone numbers via MSN.

Short post for today. Lovestoned / I Think She Knows by Justin Timberlake. Does she knows? I hope so, but I don't think so.

-MXV-

What Goes Around, Comes Around

Was trying to sleep last night, but all I could think of was you. What made you so special that it bugs me? Why don't I have the guts to tell you & assure you of my feelings? Maybe I've been losing things & people that are important to me, I'm beginning to be a paranoia. I had enough. Try being in my shoes & you'll understand the reason. Sorry, but I'm afraid that if I admit, I might lose another person that's important to me. I can't afford to take the risk anymore. Please tell me if you think that we can do something about it.

Weird things happen all the time. This link here redirects you to one of the featured news on Yahoo!, about a Maple Story gamer being jailed for killing her virtual husband. Apparently, the 43-year old woman was angry of being divorced by her husband in the game without a word, and revenged by killing her husband's avatar.

Then there's this ritual in Thailand where getting rid of bad luck & prolonging life is made possible by lying in a coffin while a group of monks perform death rites as if the participants are already dead. This ritual ignited director Ekachai Uekrongtham's curiosity, and so he traced the history of it & directed a new horror-flick based on the story. The Coffin will be released at local cinemas on the 30th of October, 2008. Starring Karen Mok & Ananda Everingham.


If only there's evidence to convince me that this whole thing really works, then I don't mind giving it a shot. Not at all.

What Goes Around, Comes Around by Justin Timberlake. Maybe? I don't see any of the good things I've done coming back to me. Karma, huh?

-MXV-

Justify

Yeap, they've emptied my account with my ATM card. Cancelled it earlier yesterday, & I went to the bank after Chemistry practical today to obtain a new card. Sigh.. Not sure when would I be able to get myself a new phone, but it doesn't matter anymore even if I get a lousy one. Nokia 1110, anyone?

Is this a post-traumatic effect? After all the shits that happened yesterday, I felt insecure. Somehow it feels like there's not a single safe place to hide in Malaysia anymore. Imagine getting robbed in the broad daylight in a public area with the security guards doing nothing & actually WATCHING the whole thing. Now I'm just hoping that what the inspector told me last night is true, that those thieves will usually only withdraw money using the ATM cards, & then disposes them off. I'm worried about identity card forgering & stuffs like that.... Oh well, maybe I'm simply thinking too much.

I'm tired. Think I should go to sleep already. Feeling so restless, both mentally & physically. Sorry guys, but if any of you are trying to suggest that I should find someone to talk to & express myself; it's useless. I'm simply not as lucky as most of you guys, having loved ones to talk to & discuss whenever things happen. Parents don't understand, I'm sure you guys know that. No, don't try to leave any shitty comments that doesn't make sense, or comments to simply argue with my point. Appreciate the fact that you have someone that care about you, and cherish your friends around you. Don't end up like me; it sucks & life seems so fucked up now. Justify, remixed by ATB.

-MXV-

Street Kings X

And I thought my sad days filled with bad luck is over.

It was after Mathematics Paper 3 today. No, I don't wanna talk about the Maths paper. I went Carrefour to collect the new lenses for my spectacles. Vincent & Jole followed as well, and after leaving my spectacles for the worker to replace the lenses, we went KFC for lunch. We went back to the shop, & the worker told me that my glasses are not ready yet. So we looked at the sunglasses from the outside of the shop, & that's when 2 guys approached us. One of them appeared to be quite thin & polite, wearing spectacles while the other is a big-sized, rude & gangsterish son of a bitch. The first thing they asked us was, "Are you from Klang?", which raises my suspicion after the whole ordeal that they might be from Klang & afraid to be recognized by us back in their area.

Back to the story. We were kinda shocked & blur when the fucking son of a bitch spoke to us rudely & threatened to whack us, so we just followed what they said. They made up stories, saying that a group of men beat up & robbed one of their friends, so they're here to try to recognise anyone that's involved. They said their friend was robbed of fake credit cards & handphones worth RM 40-50k. All those shits about them involved in illegal businesses such as forging fake credit cards & smuggling handphones, obviously stories made up to scare us. Then they brought us to the Burger King, chose a place far at the end corner of the restaurant & made us sat & wait. The skinny guy was polite; such a decent-looking guy, so nice that you will never think that he's a conman. Well, looks are simply deceiving. As I said, never ever judge a book by it's cover. We actually knew something's not right with them, I didn't know the reason why we didn't retaliate. I was holding back my fist all the time, but was worried that if I do something, Jole & Vincent might not be reacting the way I thought they will, because they were actually drowned in fear. Furthermore I didn't know whether they have weapons with them, because in situations like this, when you are the victim, you'll be absolutely mind-crippled to do anything logic.

We were actually detained for about an hour or so in that secluded part of Burger King, I don't know if we can sue them for kidnapping. Heh. Any detainment without the agreement of the victim could be considered as kidnapping. Then that rude prick kept walking in & out of Burger King, most probably to check if the line is clear for them to escape. Finally, they asked for our phones, ATM cards & pin numbers, also along with our IC number & name. Part of the scam/plan. I'm still angry over my own unwillingness to fight. Just turn the fucking table over & throw them a few punches before shouting for security will do. They escaped after that, and we went straight to the security to report about it. I don't understand what the purpose of hiring guards if they're not going to do anything when shit happens. We made a report in the security room, & then we were told to go to the police station to lodge a police report.

Went to the police station at Wangsa Maju Section 1, and all the impatient clerk did was to ask us to explain what happened, & she printed out a report before asking us to go see an inspector at Sentul. What the fuck?? She was really impatient & grumbled when I asked for another copy of the report, with her unsatisfied face. The appointment with the inspector was scheduled to be at 9 P.M., but we went there earlier, hoping that we could get things settled sooner. Reached there at 8 P.M., and the inspector was there. Inspector NurHazizah, if I'm not mistaken, which is the friendliest & nicest police officer I've ever came across. She asked us everything, into the small little details, including what those pricks looks like, & what we've lost, things like that. I was relieved when the inspector assured me that those bastards will not be able to do anything with my I.C. number & full name. Hope they'll get caught & thrown in jail for a month or so, although I doubt they'll learn from their mistakes.

My mom was like a mad bull when I reached home, scolding me non-stop for 1/2 an hour or so. Parents just don't seem to understand that sometimes, not EVERYTHING is their children's fault. I ignored her & went into my room.

Let's see, the first person I called after I got robbed was cheL'. Any special meaning behind that? I told her about what happened & asked her to keep dialling my phone number to check whether those fuckers are using my phone. Barred it at a phone shop a little while after, & recovered my new SIM card from the Maxis centre in Jaya Jusco. Then I called my mom who then alerted the bank about my ATM card, disabling it's usage. Not sure whether they've withdrawn the money in it. Just hope that escape is their first priority, & my money shall remain in the account. All RM 600 of them. Then I might be able to get the cheapest phone available; no colour, no camera.

Let's pray that those motherfuckers' dicks got rolled over by a trailer or something. I hate them to the core, & they shall burn in hell. From now on, I'll pray hard everyday, cursing & ensuring that they will not have a single peaceful day.

I'm gonna give a short description on how they look, and if you see them, be prepared to give them a handful of blows to send them back to their moms' wombs. Oh, and do make sure to SMS or give me a call, I'd like to join the bashing party. One of them is a thin, short man with spectacles, while the other is slightly taller, tanned, medium-sized guy with a gangster attitude. That motherfucker, I tell you. I'm gonna carry a hammer with me anywhere I go from now on, & if I see him again, I'm gonna crack his head. Be careful when you go shopping, no matter where you are. They might target another shopping mall after this. This is byfar the post with the most profanities I've made, & I'm sorry if I've offended anyone. Not those two jerks, though.

Street Kings X, Street Kings OST.

-MXV-

The Reason

My visits to the petrol station became less during the few weeks of my dad using my car. The price of petrol is now at RM 2.30 per litre, a 15-cent drop from previous RM 2.45 per litre. It's funny how our government is able to increase petrol price by an absurd 40% overnight, yet it took them months to decrease 40 cents. Duh, it may even take them a few more years for the next fuel price decrease, or it might not happen at all. This is Malaysia that we're living in.

Having Mathematics Paper 3 tomorrow. I'm so doomed. Extra revisions tonight, & then I'll just pray hard for everything to go well. I'd rather study for the coming Chemistry practical paper, which is much more important than anything else. Sigh.

-I don't care. What other people say will never change my decision. If I think you deserve a chance, and if you do, my decision is final. It shall not be compromised by any other factors. Confession is important, as I said. Do not expect other people to know what you're thinking if you're not prepared to spill it out.-

Sounds familiar? Hmm.. =) Applies to 3 different situations faced by 3 different persons that I know. Don't worry, I'm not pin-pointing at anybody.

The Reason, by Hoobastank. Old song, probably around 2003? I don't remember.. Brought back memories though.

-MXV-

U Write The Rules

I don't know if I should still be typing this post by now. It's 5:01 in the evening, & I'm feeling light-headed from all the abuse I've taken last night. Stayed up the whole night to study, & I've had more than 5 cans of Nescafe in the past 24 hours just to keep myself awake. Reached home earlier, vomitted all that I've had for lunch. Oh Lord, can you please be less a meanie to me? Feeling slightly feverish, I shall take a few Panadol pills & nap after this.

Mathematics Paper 4 was tolerable, but not that easy. Questions are confusing and I didn't manage to complete the last part of the last question as I ran out of time. So my solutions are kinda hanged half-way there, like wet clothes waiting to be dry cleaned.

It's a series of mishaps for me this year. No other year could be more mentally & emotionally-challenging like 2008. I can't expect my life to be perfect all the time anyway. Sigh.. I tripped on a parquet edge in my room when I was coming out of shower just now, broke one of my toenails. It didn't really hurt, but my toe was bleeding profusely, like an overflowed dam. Hmm.. Stuck a piece of plaster to it & hope that'll stop the bleeding.

A few interesting questions I've received from one of my friend today.. Q. Are you happy? A. No. Q. Is your life enjoyable? A. How could it be if I'm not happy? Q. Would you like to start over a new life again? A. Well, if everything will change for the better, I don't mind turning over a new leaf.

If everything turns for the better, I don't mind. Really. Are you happy? =)

U Write The Rules - Young Parisians.

-MXV-

Girl In The Moon

It started over a year ago, when friends started to call me Ken. Why? Hmm... I'm not sure either. Back then I was a familiar tBun customer, & in every game I play, every aliases that I've used will definitely bear the name 'Ken' in them. Kenshii, or K-E-N-W-O-O-D for example. No, I'm not promoting the audio giant here. It's just that one day, the name simply came to my mind while I was thinking of an alias or nickname for DotA. K-E-N-W-O-O-D still exists in Garena though, where I'm still actively AFK-ing to gain experience. Then I'm getting the hang of it, new players or people I know from tBun or Garena will know me as Ken even though I have not used that name in tBun LAN games for over a year, which in turn really put myself into considering Ken as my English name. Lame? Maybe. JunYew's Arthur sounds nice though. Haha. So should I, or should I not, since I wasn't born with an English name? Having it in my IC does sound interesting. Hmm.. Thinking about doing it, but most probably I won't.

Blogging in the afternoon in a dark, spookily cold, air-conditioned room feels good. Am I studying lately? Yes, but nothing really goes into my head. Couldn't concentrate as my mind often wanders off whenever I sit down & look at the notes. This is bad. Really bad. Sigh.. I need to go somewhere nice, sit down & have a drink, preferably a nice glass of beer & relax. It'll pragmatically help lift off some pressure off me if I do, but my parents are still using my car, which means I won't be able to go anywhere for now. It's really frustrating for me to stay at home. If I were to follow my heart & do what I want, I'd most probably be in a taxi heading to 1 Utama already. Troublesome though.

Hmm... Darius.. Used to love his songs, then I've not heard of him in quite a while. I was looking for a song to upload for today when I spotted 'Girl In The Moon' in a compilation folder. Girl In The Moon, by Darius.

-MXV-

Easier To Run

It's the raining season, I love it but hate it at the same time. LoL. I love when it rains; staying at home will be much more exciting with the bed as the main temptation. Haha. Sure ya'll understand what I mean. The best thing to do when it rains is.. well, sleep!! Then I took this picture of the back of my house when it was raining, thought that the view somewhat gives me a comfortable, peaceful feeling.


It could be much nicer if I have a camera with higher megapixels. Hmm...

Then I noticed a car; a Gen.2, bearing a weird registration number when I was driving back home earlier. It reads XXX IDB 188, which I don't think ever existed in any JPJ records. I mean, it's obviously not from any of the 14 states in the country, it couldn't be an army or police vehicle, it's not from any embassy because the background of the number plate is not red & it's not the format for embassy registration plates, and it's not a temporary registration plate either.

Uhh, not very clear but I think it'll be a decent rough image of the car's plate number. Weird, I'll try to find more information regarding registration numbers like this one in Malaysia. I have heard that it's possible to have custom registration numbers, but definitely not in this format. Hmm..

Easier To Run, Linkin Park.

-MXV-

Exile (Halftime)

It's been quite some time since the last I drove dangerously on the road, swerving in & out of the smallest gaps between cars available, and honestly, I didn't wanna do it again. But today, I was forced to do so by a rich dude that doesn't know how to drive, yet wanna show off his car's ability to perform.

If you are an everyday driver, then this question should be something that you will absolutely agree to. Don't you just hate those rich man's toys; those Harriers, Estimas, Alphards, El Grands, Muranos and such, with their cosy & luxurious interior and their irritating HID xenon headlamps? I mean, they are good cars with high performance engines and I wish to own one too if I'm rich enough. But for these cars, they're imported with stock HID kits. I do understand the Japanese being safety conscious about building their cars as the HID kits are often bright enough to literally illuminate the whole street, but their innovative thinking has set off some problems to us when their cars were grey-imported into our country. You see, what I'm suggesting here is that they should remove the kits before exporting to certain countries such as Malaysia, abiding the law that governs the use of HIDs AND, simply because Malaysians don't drive like the Japanese. Ahh, yes, I'm getting to the point here. What pisses me off so much is that some of the drivers of those big cars do not think rationally and act accordingly while driving; they switches their light to high-beam all the way, temporarily blinding the oncoming traffic, putting other road users at risk, or tail-gating other drivers & high-lighting them, which is just another common scenario.

Okay, let me get back to my story. cheL' asked me to fetch her home from college, so I said okay since I'm going to the bank to deposit some cash (Yes, my parents finally paid me the money for the lenses & headlamp, so I'll be returning my dad's lightbulb after this.). It was a smooth ride all the way; I took an alternative route to Genting Klang via Desa Melawati to avoid the traffic jam at the MRR2. cheL' complained about not having enough sleep & went dozing in my car, so I didn't wanna wake her up. Uhh, not sure whether she's half awake or asleep when I was driving... bahh nevermind. Then I reached the traffic light & turned into this famous, accident-prone stretch of road beside TAR College, Jalan Tumbuhan. Weird and dumb accident happens here; if ya'll could recall the first time I drove to college and a mat rempit crashed into the back of a taxi, it happened at this very road. But I do enjoy driving here because of the smoothness of the road, most probably the smoothest road in K.L. ever paved by Samyvellu.

I was as usual, having my emo thoughts while driving & enjoying the atmosphere. In a blink of an eye, I was behind this Toyota Estima. I can't tell what was the driver trying to do, but most probably he's trying to overtake a motorcycle in front of him as he switched lane from right to left. What he didn't notice was there's another motorcycle in the left lane which was quite slow, so he was kinda dragged down while following behind the old bike. As I thought it was pretty slow to follow behind the Estima (it was doing only 40 KM/H, 50 KM/H tops), I turned into the right lane in an attempt to overtake him and the bike. The other bike on the right lane was picking up speed, so I was able to speed up a little too. Then what this 'smart' Estima driver did was, as I accelerate to overtake, he accelerated too. I did not know from where did he obtained his driving license from, because in the undang or written test, one of the crucial point of overtaking is never accelerate whenever someone is trying to overtake you. He, is doing the total opposite of it. Maybe he 'bought' his license? Anything could happen in this bribery-infested country. I didn't wanna miss a junction ahead turning left, so I thought maybe I should slow down & get behind the breadloaf-shaped van. When I slowed down, he slowed down too. That pissed me off and I got mad enough to turn on the left-turn signal light, accelerated & slipped into the left lane through the small gap of the motorcycle in front of me & the Estima on my left.

The driver of that Estima e-braked and honked at me furiously. I wonder how could a dumb, no-brainer like him make enough cheese to buy such a nice car? Dirty money, maybe. I chuckled, and turned into the junction. The Estima followed behind closely, most probably because the driver was angry over what happened about 30 seconds ago. He tail-gated me, flashing his HID headlamps, which was really irritating. Okay, so you wanna play, huh? A hard hit on the brake could easily send him crashing into my rear, but all he need to do is to pay for the damages done to both cars with his dirty money, which is not much of a lesson for a filthy rich bastard like him. I've got a brilliant idea. He wants to play. So let's play. Since money won't make him feel the slightest pinch, teaching him the value & sensation of frustration should be a better detour. Hahahah. Anger management, my friend!! So I set myself into driving-frenzy mode, and swerved in and out of traffic in the smallest gaps. So far so good, he's able to keep up. Then I was in the right lane speeding when I saw a Myvi parked at the right side of the road, which practically turned the road into a one-lane road. Then, there's a Kancil on the left, driving very very slowly. Very nice. I speed up to the back of the Myvi & then slipped into the gap between the Kancil & the Myvi. A very very small gap, and I was almost certain to get hit from the side by the Kancil if I was slower by a few miliseconds. As expected the Estima had to slow down & slowly follow behind the Kancil as it is simply too big & couldn't make it through the gap in time. Duhh, you won't get anywhere with over 200 horses in that 3.0 litre-engine with a dumbass behind the wheel. I can imagine the driver, over-frustrated & slamming his fist on the steering wheel behind those heavily-tinted glasses. Hahahah. Then I came to a traffic light & the Estima came right beside me & stopped. I could feel that he's glaring at me, even though I can't possibly see anything through the driver's window because of the dark tint, yet I just kept cool & looked straight in front with a big grin. Now who's with the final laugh? Maybe he should learn how to drive again before trying to race in a van. I'll be happy to introduce a driving instructor to him if he needs one.

I'm not sure how I could possibly drive that way without waking cheL' up. Was she that tired or is my driving skills that fine, perfect & smooth? Hahaha.. This will really be the last time I drive like this, no more crazy driving for me. I'm done, & I still haven't tell someone how much I love her yet. LoLz. So here are the lessons & road safety message to the rich drivers of enormous cars out there; drive safely, race with someone only with the comparable performance & experience, & please do not turn your high-beam on or high-light other road users & tail-gate them at the same time. Money can't buy everything, not your life, not others'. Just quit being a nuisance & a disgrace to the rich & famous. You didn't bought the road; Samyvellu paved them. Hahahahah.

Exile (Halftime) by Epik High. Only instrumentals, but worth the time.

-MXV-

Ayla

Damn, life is so boring.. I really couldn't live like this, doing nothing sitting at home the whole day staring at books. I'm sexually deprived, I miss all the orgasms I had when there were still classes. What classes and exams has got to do with orgasms? Uh.. Don't ask. Hahahaha. Just feeling the need to super-express myself.. You know, it's like a stretch while you're on a long journey.

My dad's car is fixed, but he's still using my car for some reasons, which really pisses me off. Imagine this situation; Two cars at home, but your dad drives your car out & brought the key for the other car together with him. There's no food at home and you'll have to find your own way to survive a day, with limited amount of money. RM 10 in your wallet is insufficient for you to order deliveries, and it's not enough either for taxi to & fro. What will you do? Walking out to the nearest restaurant could be the only alternative, but the walk will take at least 30 minutes, and you're already starving at home, with barely enough energy to move in & around the house. That was what happened to me today. Sad? Yes. I went to sleep, which was probably the best idea I could think of.

Woke up, dad's back. Then you go out to check on your car. What happened? One of the bulbs in the headlamps has gone out. One question; how could you possibly drive a car for only three days before burning the bulb? Not to mention that it's an LED-bulb, meant to last longer than any ordinary bulb. See why I don't like the idea of my dad driving my car? He's not gonna pay for that, for sure. I'm gonna remove one bulb from his car until he gives me the money to replace the burnt bulb. Drastic & deadly move, just to ensure that he'll drive my car more carefully next time.

Ayla (Original DJ Taucher Mix) by.... Ayla?

-MXV-

Die Another Day

First paper of my A-Level examination; Mathematics Paper 1. I wouldn't say that it is tough, but I won't say it's easy either. Few questions are rather do-able, with some of the last questions in the paper involving some serious head-crackings and extra long workings that'll empty the ink in your new pen in one go. Well, it's over now & I'm choosing not to think about it anymore. Whatever the outcome is, let it be.

Walked out of college, got into my car & went Carrefour to hopefully get a new pair of spectacles for myself. I simply need new lenses with higher power. I wonder when will I actually go blind? Thought of replacing the whole pair of spectacles too, but I couldn't find a frame with the appropriate size with many of them being too small for me. No choice but to only replace the lenses on my current frame. New lenses cost me RM 400, paid RM 100 deposit and the rest when I collect them. And then I'm broke.. There's this... cliché, this hackneyed idea that I'm a Malay whenever people look & even talk to me. Why? Just because I look & speak Malay fluently? One of the employees at the optical shop was speaking & having conversations with me in Malay until the very moment I wrote my name on a form that he handed to me. "Aiyo!! Chinese ah?? Kena tipu loooorrr....". I sat there, with a grin on my face. Oh, another victim of deception. Mwahahaha...

Looks like I'm still not getting the response I wanted from her. Hmm... Should I just tell her instead? I don't know.. Maybe she's not sensitive enough, she doesn't even know that I'm talking about her. Or simply playing hard to get? Heh.. Please do not be a scourge to me... T_T I just need to know.. Alright whatever..

Die Another Day by Madonna!! Yeap.. The theme for the movie of the same title..

-MXV-

Teardrop

There are just too many different views & definitions of life, with most of them being quite true. See, it varies; different people might just have different opinions about it. One may think that life is just a short period of time that we're spending on Earth, which is particularly ironic. Then another person may tell you that life is when your heart is still beating and your brain still functioning, which is medically correct. Then I looked through a dictionary, a really old dictionary which was given to me, if I'm not mistaken, when I was still in primary school. Primary 3? Maybe. Oxford Dictionary, which helped me a lot in all the years of my studies. Now, I'm relying on it to define the meaning of life.

Life noun (plural lives) - Capacity for growth, functional activity, and continual change until death; living things and their activity; duration of thing's existence or ability to function.

Continual change until death.

Well said, well defined. People change. Due to what? Tons of reasons & factors. Influences from peers, surroundings, lack of self-control, etc. Or they may be forced to change for material, for love. Sounds more like I'm talking about prostitution? No. I'm talking about how people can change & turn their backs on each other, most of the time with selfishness in their minds. Sad but so true. Anyone here have (or had) friends that backstabbed will agree with me. Just look at how far a man would go to defend his own beliefs or thoughts. We're living in a world with stubborn genes as the dominant, where we wouldn't admit our own faults & think we are right all the time. C'mon, learn to... umm.. learn? I'm talking about a friend here that got some things wrong yet stubborn to admit. The best part is, he went around spreading bad rumours about me, saying things behind me after that. He changed. He wasn't the good ol' buddy that I once know anymore. I'm sorry dude, but I can't tolerate you anymore. Not 'till you learn from your mistake.

Teardrop, by Massive Attack. The original opening theme for House M.D..

-MXV-

Zencho

For a while there I lost myself, feeling unusually weird. Lack of sleep? Maybe. I sat down this morning, blood rushed to my head & I started to feel giddy. I lost interest in everything for the rest of the day, from breakfast to lunch to dinner. Took a nap in the afternoon, thought it'll help at least a little. Well... Yeah, a little. Woke up at around 7 P.M., showered & had dinner. Flipped open my Biology notes, I stared at the pages but nothing registered into my brain. It's like reading a book written in an alien language. What the hell is wrong with me?

Then I thought I might just settle down, set everything else aside & start writing a poem. A poem about someone, a best kept secret that only one other person in this world know about. I can't decide whether or not I should tell her how I feel. I know you've probably heard me falling in love a gazillion times, but this time it's somewhat different. The exotic, rich feeling pinning me down, disabling me from deciding what's right & what's not whenever I looked into her eyes.. She's a pure treasure, but chances are that she just doesn't know how much she meant to me. Love can never be forced, which is quite true & I've been through it before for a few times. Things will never work if a pair does not have the same feelings towards each other. I think some of you understand what it's like to love someone that doesn't love you. What's that word again? Unrequited? Yeah..

Unrequited

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You're made known to me, somehow,
Friends we'd be, venturing the ups & downs of life,
As each day measures, as we grew closer,
I realized.
There's more than meets the eyes,
Subdued, locked by the law of attraction,
In love I am, greatly.

Watching you, falling into the arms of another,
Tears broke out deep in me.
Silent weeps, wet cheeks.
Never did I failed to help,
Whenever you needed help.
The agonizing pain of a friend's love,
Will never be understood by the likes of you.

I was terrorized,
By the fear of risk,
By the risk of losing,
By the losing of a friend.
Maybe,
Just maybe,
I amn't that special afterall...

I dread to be with you,
Feeling the same, are not you.
As I strive through every dawn and dusk,
You, are always on my mind.

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I questioned my own ability to think rationally when I was writing this; yes, I was 101% insane & out of my mind. I was afraid that if I voice out, things will all come down. For me or for her, none will be good. I do not wish to know how she feels, because I know it'll definitely let me down. However, if you know who you are & what I'm talking about, & if you think that this is a chance that we should not waste, then please tell me.. I'll be waiting, hopefully..

Zencho - Malice Mizer.

-MXV-

These Days

I guess lethargy is taking over me. I've been sleeping like what, 12 or 13 hours at night, then another 4-5 hours in the afternoon & still feeling sleepy afterwards. That will happen to someone that often take afternoon naps, like me. LoL. Just another boring day, again. No car, again. Study? Yeah, a little.

Went out for dinner with parents for the first time in like, 6 months? Maybe more, since Chinese New Year. Yes, now can you see the gap between my parents & I? The last time we had dinner together was at Pangkor, if I'm not mistaken. Yep, second night of Chinese New Year. That was the only once with our relatives. Sigh.. Found out that my dad is going for the Toyota Hilux. Sucks? Quite. Weakest engine of all pick-ups there are in the market, which explains why there are less & less new Hiluxes on the road. I don't know, but I would rather choose the new Ford Ranger TDCI. More power, better interior material quality. Cheaper, too. Hilux at RM 96k, roughly, the Ranger at RM 88k. It is his choice anyway, I have no right to make the decision for him. I'm already expecting things like, "Aiyah, should have bought the Ford Ranger/Isuzu D-Max Hi-Def/Mitsubishi Triton earlier la..Wrong choice already." from him. Let's just sit back & watch.

Alright, gotta continue with my downloads now. New songs to be added to my collection. These Days, by ATB.

-MXV-

搖滾怎麼了!!

Went breakfast with John On & Kati in the morning, then Kati's new laptop faced some problems & so he sent it back to a shop in LowYatt where he bought it as it is still in warranty. Primary hard drive corrupted, I suspect. I wasn't able to follow because I've promised cheL' to watch Disaster Movie with her in the afternoon. And then her brother decided to join.. LoL. We left at around 3 P.M. to Gardens, bought 3 Premiere class tickets for the show at 5 P.M..

Disaster Movie.. Disastrous enough to carry it's title. It's not that good compared to the Scary Movies, Epic Movie or the recent Meet The Spartans. I'm not sure whether it's the missing cut scenes that affected the movie overally. But I'm sure the uncensored version will be much better. Downloading or buying the uncensored, uncut version is recommended; don't waste your time at the cinema for this. 3.7 out of 5 stars for unrealistic, illogical humour found in the movie.

'Gene!!! For the first time, this leng zhai is featured in my blog.. Haha.

Random~

Random~

Uhhh...

This is what THEY ordered..

This is what I ordered; Iced Mocaffe..

I'm starting to see more & more animals abused by their owners, most of the abused are pet dogs. Just saw one today while waiting for cheL' & 'Gene, it was raining and a dog, a cute one, was standing in the rain. It moved around, but only in front of a corner lot house, so I suppose the owner lives there.


Sigh..

Trying to find shelter under the tree..

Walked away when it saw me coming..

Learn how to love animals, guys... I've got nothing else to say. This is a common sight for me; almost everyday I can see pets outside their owners' home, without proper shelter & food. Imagine if the owners are reincarnated as a cat or dog, & their pets would then be their caretaker. Then, they'll know what it's like.

-Do I stand a chance? Looks like it, but no, I don't think so. The truth may be deceiving.-

DotA 6.55/6.55b, two of the worst maps made by IceFrog. I now announce that I'm officially quitting DotA due to the drastic changes to the original map by the map editor. Let me shorten this; larger map + unnecessary waterfalls/coffins + useless new items + gay new heroes/hero remakes = imbalance & no fun map. You'll know I'm saying the truth if you're a DotA player. In the past 40+ versions, there were no changes in the original terrain of the map, only addition of new items & heroes, & we're happy about that. It's my sovereign decision; I'm quitting. Not because I couldn't accept the changes, but because IceFrog went too far in editing. I wonder if he will revert the map back to the old terrain in the up & coming 6.56? Goodbye DotA.

搖滾怎麼了!! [Yao Gun Zen Me Le!!] - Wang Lee Hom.

-MXV-

Cha Jian Er Guo

If only people can be a little more sensitive to all the changes in their surroundings & others around them, lives will be easily improved & happiness is nothing impossible anymore. I guess you still can't notice the way I felt towards you. All the little things that I've done for a smile on your face that will change my feelings for the rest of the day. Actually I didn't even realised them till a few days ago, when I overheard you talking about someone to the others. Then the whole world took a turn for me, it was something big I missed. Tried my best to impress you, to do all the things I can so that you'll be happy by the end of the day. Here I found myself, all tangled up in a series of confusions & regrets that I shouldn't be in the first place. I overslept, & you didn't bothered to wake me up. But I don't blame you. I lack everything that I should have that a girl would want. I hope you'll be happy, just don't forget me whenever you need help or just a shoulder to cry on.

I truly apologize for the delay of the pics, cheL' just sent them over today & I uploaded them the minute I got my hands on them. Pictures from the T.G.I. party on October 8.

Birthday girl no.1. 19 years old, still available!! =D

Birthday girl no.2. 18 years old, unavailable!! Hahah~

Sita Kumari~ Interested? Please call: 1-800-IM-UNAVAILABLE. Heh.

Sita getting all excited to see the temporary tatoo on Elaine's arm.

Sita - "OMG really ah?? Real wan ah??" For the first time, JunYew looked like our Prime Minister in this picture.

Grace, Elaine & Sita.

Sita listening to Grace & Elaine's stories, JunYew... Trying to kiss Sita? Hahahah...

Cake of the fallen cream? LoLz..

Err... what do they call this again? Ice-cream stuck in between of sweet cookies? Something like that. =D

cheL' & Grace.

Shaun, our Prime Minister & me. xD

Err... What is Grace doing? =/

Singing competition begins!!

Birthday cake~

Birthday cake, lighted up~

Make your wish, girls.

"Let me cover my face before the both of you blow your saliva all over me"

Pffffffttttt!!! Grace : "I'm too skinny, I'm outta air.. x.x"

Staffs with the birthday girls.

2nd pose - shy pose. Err..

Got screamed in their face!! You got PUNK'D!!! Haha..

Gracelaine on the cake!!

The group. I know, my hair looks weird, more like a fag. =.=

Cut the CAKE!!!

At the sidewalk, Pavilion. It was lame, we were not allowed to take pictures in front of those high class shops.

LV's potential models.


The organizers sandwiching the birthday girl.

Posers~

That's all the pics, I suppose. Well there are actually more of them, these are some of the best, hand-picked by me.

I've been a good boy the whole day, staying at home doing nothing but study & play games. Does feeling emo counts too? My parents will be using my car for at least 2-3 days, and I can see what will happen to my car. My dad doesn't drive carefully; 90% of the time about 1/3 of the car is in another lane of the road. He'll run over any potholes & speedbumps, thanks to our government for being innovative and smart at creating potholes as a speed limiter for road users. Scratched bumpers, a ding here & there.. Sigh. My mom? Tissues everywhere in the car, sweet wrappers. Somehow there will be scratches on the dashboard, which I suspect are caused by her sharp & long nails. Nothing else could be said & done; my car is damned.

This post is long enough for today. Cha Jian Er Guo - Li Sheng Jie.

-MXV-

Lips Of An Angel

Somehow managed to cope with my emo-ness when I met up with Kati this morning; he wanted to see my way of driving up Genting. Well, I wasn't really in the mood to speed & risk lives, so I just drove steadily at under 100 KM/H. Of course the whole trip took longer than it should with that kind of speed. Went to First World for Starbucks before coming down. Yeah, just feeling miserable & tBun doesn't seem to make it to the top of my list right now.

My Tazo Iced Shaken Lemonade.

Kati's Java Chip Frappuchino.


Posing with his Frap.

Another pose. Zzz..

Went back to Wangsa Maju after that. Finally had my haircut after weeks of keeping long, messy hair. Still as emo as usual, with things actually getting worse. My dad is finally planning to sell of his troublesome Pajero & get a new, problem-free car. That SUV has been serving my family for a little more than 4 years, but the condition of the engine is so severe that buying a new car will actually be cheaper than servicing & repairing the car again & again. Not sure which car is in his mind now, but most of them are from the Toyota line-up. Maybe Wish, maybe Fortuner. Or maybe Harrier. Don't know why is he such a big fan of 4WDs, if it was me I'll place my bet on the new Honda Odyssey instead. Looks good, performs great, with high level of comfortablity & safety. Or the Civic 2.0. Or the Accord 3.5. 3.5? A little too much, isn't it? The road tax for that mighty 3.5 petrol engine under the hood is somewhere around RM12k per year. That's about 5% of the car's price. Funny how big is the gap of the road tax price between an Accord 2.4 & Accord 3.5, with the 2.4 only around RM 1.8k a year.

Enough of car talks, here's Lips Of An Angel, by Hinder. Emo, emo, & emo..

-MXV-