Sexy Bitch

Ignore the title for this post, for once. I'm feeling very very ecstatic & delirious from the amount of torture & pressure that I'm currently going through. I've had exams & tests 3 weeks in a row, & I'm not getting any breaks yet. Still, I'm here to update this blog just so that you guys wouldn't lose interest & get disappointed with the decreasing amount of posts over the time. Pathetic, huh? Yes, I'm here to, uh, well.. I'd rather say, 'share' my worst fears that are building up. Fears, of living in Moscow. The cases & incidents that I am going to tell you are based on true stories, I didn't make them up.

Third month into the fourth of my life here in Moscow, & I've seen enough to weaken my knees & fear of the worst happening every single time I set foot out of my hostel.

As most of my die-hard readers know, the other day I saw a dead body at the traffic light, & I was horrified at the sight of it & the fact that nobody gives a damn about that dead man. I thought that was it. I thought that was all. I was wrong. I was so wrong.

About 2 weeks ago, a train from Moscow to St. Petersburg was bombed & derailed. Deaths & injuries were reported, Google it up for the exact number.

And yes, the same incident happened two years ago, where a train was bombed & also derailed on the very same route, Moscow - St. Petersburg.

In April 2007, about 3 years ago, foreign students were told to stay in their dorms to prevent unwanted attacks on Adolf Hitler's birthday, which is on the 20th of April. Yes, racist attacks.

A few of my friends that went to the Manchester Utd. vs. Russia football match managed to escape from mobs that went berserk & attacked foreigners at the stadium after the Russian team lost.

4 days ago, my friend was robbed while he was buying a shaurma near a supermarket. He lost his phone & about 3000 roubles in cash, which converts into about RM 350. Fortunately, he wasn't hurt.

About 3 days ago, I was informed that a man was murdered near the M1 building, & the body was dumped on the Metro railway tracks & a train ran over it.

Things like this happens every single day. Road rage is common, I've seen people getting down of their cars & fighting in the middle of the road. Every single day, something happens & people die without valid reasons, & at times they die an unwilling death. I'm just so paranoid, so afraid till I couldn't care more. I can't be bothered anymore by things like this.

Of course I've not forgotten about the winter pics that I've promised. But not now. Blame it on global warming, ya? Snowing had just begun, and I'm still waiting for the inch-thick snow cover to form before taking pictures of them beautiful sceneries. No, that ain't typo. In a week's time, my fellow readers.

And yes, even with all the safety issues aside, I've managed to find a little bit of comfort & company here. Some dramatic friends I've made with their dramatic stories. Their love lives, their studies, their issues with their own friends or even room-mates which seems to be more important than their up & coming exams. Drama, drama & more drama. Yes, definitely.. It's not that bad after all, there are good things that are happening around me, which I really appreciate. Things that cheered me up, well, at least by a little. I'm not being over-proud of myself, but.. I have a friend here, & upon discovering my collection of songs & techno, club-style tracks & the songs that I introduce to him, he told me that he 'trust my taste in picking the finest tracks, which is comparable to picking a needle out of a stack of hay'. I'm offered a task by a senior; to be the DJ for the up & coming Christmas gathering-cum-party which will be held on the 19th of December by the Malaysian Christian Fellowship. I feel honoured. I really am. But I do also have my own worries; it's been years since I last played songs for gatherings. I really don't wanna screw up & ruin the whole Christmas experience for them. Yet, I'll be more than just glad to be able to play for them. Never thought that I'd be bringing the whole DJ-ing thing here, all the way from Malaysia. Music & me? Inseparable.

Thanks for listening to my rants, and sorry for the delayed post. Pictures will be up soon, I promise. Here ya'll go, one of my personal favourites.

Sexy Bitch - David Guetta feat. Akon.

-MXV-

I Don't Wanna Stop

The farewell party went pretty well last week, although some of my friends disappointed me badly when they stood me up & broke their promises to attend our last gathering before I leave to Moscow. You know who you are. I'm still pretty much shocked when I see the number of friends that attended; 30 of us in a VIP room in California Pizza Kitchen. That's the biggest gathering that I've organized in these 2 decades of my life.

Anyway, the actual & official departure date has been released; I'll be leaving on the 21st of September, 2 A.M.. Kinda abrupt, eh? 5 more days.. 5 more days & I'll be leaving the country for about 6 years.. Well, of course I'll be back here in KL every once a year or so, but..

The feeling, it's just different. To be away from my family, to be away from my country & friends.. To be away from my lover, especially.. Yes, I have a lover. I admitted that to my mom last night. What I was fore-telling about the consequences of telling her was lashes, espresso-style awakening shots of anger & scoldings. I did not at all expected that she'll be so calm & cool about it, asking me all sorts of questions about her. That's something new, knowing my mom's temper, attitude, mentality & personality, this is the first time she actually reacted that way. Good or bad? I don't know..

I'm already missing her right now. What should I do during the entire 6 years of my course over there? Life will definitely be boring & lonely for me, no doubt.. But what I'm hoping & wishing now is to have her love, our love, to fire & fuel me through this long ordeal. I'll work hard so that I'll be able to provide her a better future.

Or can I?

There're not many people who actually know about the story of my love-life. This relationship had been going on for many, many months, very secretively.. A few who know are close friends of mine, and of course, I will never ever reveal their names. But seriously, this whole thing went on for too long, too much unnecessary time spent on dragging & delaying it. I shall confess & admit everything very soon. Love, is simply too complicated. Perhaps after revealing my story, I'll be portrayed as an antagonist in everyone's mind. But I don't care. I know I have to take the risk. I don't wanna stop right here.

So if there are any mistakes that I've said or done, please forgive me, for I'm not perfect. Friends & family members, they last as long as i appreciate them. Forgive me for all that I've done. I seek forgiveness from my parents, relatives, friends, teachers & lecturers, & anyone that I've offended or treated harshly in the past. I'm sorry.

I'm feeling numb. I feel lost. What should I do? 5 more days.. Many things will definitely happen in these 5 days.. Important things.. Memorable things..

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Hey there I hope everything's all right
I forgot to call you in the wintertime
Like the wave crash coming back
I've got feelings pouring down against this healing
While you try to trace which side I'm on

When the wind blows between us
High above this empty feeling
I don't wanna stop
I don't wanna stop
When the waves crash beneath us
Down below this empty feeling
I don't wanna stop
I don't wanna stop

Can we dance like everything's all right
Can we trade the day in for the night
Like a homesick tournament
I'm not breathing till I leave with you believing
I don't want to trace another song

When the wind blows between us
High above this empty feeling
I don't wanna stop
I don't wanna stop
When the waves crash beneath us
Down below this empty feeling
I don't wanna stop
I don't wanna stop

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I Don't Wanna Stop - ATB.

-MXV-

For An Angel

So.. Many of you must've heard about the latest, grandest news about me, leaving to Moscow, Russia very, very soon. Actual date not known yet, but it was earlier speculated to be either 14th, 16th or 18th. Now, the new dates has been released; it'll be either on the 21st, 23rd, or 25th. More news coming up on my date of departure will be updated here, so check back soon if you really wanna know the date & time of my flight.

Oh, I've not revealed anything about the purpose of me going there, right? Well.. This letter will explain everything..

Offer letter from RSMU (Russian State Medical University).

Yes, I'll be there to further my studies, picking up medical degree.

You see, as a student that is able to continue studying overseas, I should be happy, grateful & excited about it. But me? Not at all. There are some issues that are holding me back here, my emotions, my mentality. My feelings. My love. My family. My friends. My country. Home.

Everything will be explained & further described & evaluated in a special post, coming up very soon. First things first.

A farewell gathering is currently being organized, with a date fixed by fellow friends; they want it to be on the 12th of September, 2009 as it's a Saturday. They've already fixed the date, I'll now be fixing the place. 8 PM at Chillies' Grill & Bar, KLCC. Yes, it's a bit pricey. But hey, once in a blue moon. Give me a call or a SMS if you're coming, everyone is invited.

Updates on my car. A video will show them all. Last video of my moments, enjoying & spending quality time in my car with my state-of-art Hi-Def sound system.

I swear I cried when I was recording that video. It wasn't a well-recorded video, but it did, it filled me up with a bucket of tears & supplied me with enough water to sob the whole night. All the effort, time & care spent on the car.. The memories of my first car.. The fate of WRG 2669 is still currently unknown; it might be sold, or my parents might keep it as their second car.

For An Angel 2009 PVD Remix - Paul Van Dyk.

-MXV-

Kaleidoscope

It was Nicole's birthday about a week ago, and her friends planned to celebrate her birthday, together with Jing Wen's birthday as well as Ethan's farewell last Saturday. We had a picnic at Hutan Lipur Chamang, Bentong. Well, words couldn't describe the beauty of nature, pictures & videos do. We found a nice spot & settled down, unfolded the mat & unpacked everything.

Kreshenka Jaisi, shying away from the camera.

Random.

Random.

Random.

Random.

Random.

Random.

The birthday-cum-farewell cake.

Eating time!!

From the left: Jing Wen, Shenka, Sam, Ethan, Michelle & Nicole.

Shenka, high on her hormones.

She's feeling kinky, I think?

Ethan broke his neck.

The waterfall.

Danger zones, marked with pyramidal stone markers.

Direct translation : Statistic Accident At Forest To Console Chamang. Wth??

The two lucky guys.. Sigh..

Lucky guy #1.

Lucky guy #2.

Final shot of the day.

I'm sure most of you guys would wonder what is the Top Gear linked-thumbnail doing on the right side of my page. Of course, it's part of my hobby to watch the latest episode of Top Gear every week, but the latest & last season has just ended, which is pretty sad for me. The TV programme had always been a humour supplier to my gloomy days; but the very very last few minutes of season 13 episode 7 was..unexplainable. Watch it, if you're an avid automotive & Top Gear-fan. Otherwise, proceed to the third video taken at the picnic.

Some nice & funny adverts made by Jeremy on the new VW Sirocco.

Somehow I'm feeling sad while watching this video.. I don't know.. Sigh..

Hapy Birthday...

Jumping for joy on the bridge.

Oh well.. Life's kinda boring for me.. Anyway, new stuffs in my car, but guess ya'll will have to wait till the next post for it.. Haha. Happy Birthday to Nicole & Jing Wen.. Sweet 18 perhaps? Enjoy your teenage life to the max..

Here's Kaleidoscope by Kate Havnevik, specially dedicated to the birthday duo.

-MXV-

Never Stop This Feeling

Alrite.. I know, this post has been delayed for quite some time. Almost a week, in fact. But nevermind.. Here comes the pictures from the gathering / my birthday!!

Anyway, just to give ya'll a basic idea of what happened on that day..

I've told everyone to meet up in my room at 4 P.M., the earliest came at 5:20 P.M.. So you guys may expect me to be quite disappointed (and pissed) as I was not given any reason at all why they were late. Everybody were in the room only at about 5:40 P.M., and I've lost about 2 hours there just to wait for them.

Anyway, that's fine. About 12 of them showed up in my room (Pathetically, only twelve showed up when I'm pretty sure that the SMS was forwarded to at least 20 of them.), and each of them chipped in some cheese for my birthday presents & card. I must say, my birthday this year was pretty much alcohol-orientated. I received 5 bottles of liquor as my birthday presents. Shocking? A bottle of whiskey, a bottle of wine, and 3 bottles of beer. Darn you guys, I'm trying my best to retire from drinking here & ya'll are tempting me like this.

Pictures below.

The bed.

View of the room from the entrance.

Working desk.

The room.

Finally, they came.

Penang Kopitiam, Midvalley.

Random.

Random.

The second table.

Lum looked blur here.

Random.

Sita the pretty girl.

We had dinner at Penang Kopitiam, heard from those who ordered Nasi Lemak said that the sambal was very, very good. I should try that next time. Well, it was fun having friends there. Don't know when will I be able to see all of you again.. Oh well. I appreciate everything, all the liquor that you guys bought for me especially.. Almost RM 300 for that bottle of whiskey, I'll never be much more happier than to see that piece of receipt in the plastic bag together with the liquor.. Thanks mates. I'll see all of you again sometime, perhaps more of you who couldn't make it can join the fun..

I started drinking that night. Got so emotional. Just a bottle of Heineken, though. Didn't wanna be knocked-out, just wanna allow myself to sleep more easily. But ya' know, some privacy in a hotel room, some booze, and Jay Chou's song playing in the background at 6 plus in the morning was really the best emotional atmosphere that I've ever experienced. I'm serious.

How was that? Try it, if u're an alcohol-lover & as emo-headed as me.

Not much of updates on my car. I fiddled around with some LED strips & connected it to the woofer, so that it follows the rhythm, the bass beat of whatever song that is playing. Kinda cool, actually. Here's a vid..

How was that? I was bored one day & I decided to connect the wire from the LED to the woofer, just to see what kind of lighting effects that I'll get. The LEDs are cheap, around RM 5 - 10 for a 120 CM strip.. Not bad, though. I'm proud of my own work.. Heh.

Gahh.. I'm tired.. Feeling really lethargic & tired lately, don't know why.. I need more than 10 hours of sleep a day or else I'll feel like a zombie.. So I'm off to sleep now..

Ahh yes.. Back to techno, trance & dance life..

Never Stop This Feeling (A1 Project Remix) - Klubbingman feat. Beatrix Delg.

-MXV-

Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence

18th of July.. Supposed to be my birthday, rite...?

Now.. I really don't wanna celebrate my birthday or make it grand this year, but I figured out that it might as well be quite a good chance for a small reunion for me to see all of you guys again. The offer letter have not reached my hands yet, but if it does, I'll be leaving for Russia to pursue my studies in M.D. as soon as this September.

So please, do me a favour. If you guys still consider yourselves as friends of mine, then gather yourselves & meet me at Le Meridien Hotel this Saturday, 18/07/09 at 4 P.M.. We shall plan for what to do, where to go, what to eat & all in my room. Please do send me an SMS with your name on it if you're coming, just in case I've lost your number. I shall inform all of you of my room number this Saturday, so don't worry about it. About transport, I'm sure you guys can figure it out. I've been an organiser for ages, don't trouble me on such simple matters, alrite? Car-pooling, get our friends who'll be driving to fetch you. But I shall remind you guys that the parking fees at Le Meridien is not cheap; at RM 6.00 for the first hour. LRT to KL Sentral would be a smarter choice, but the hassle of taking bus/taxi to the station, then LRT to KL Sentral might be unbearable for some of you. Choose wisely, divide & share the parking fees, that's what I reckon.

Oh, and one more thing. I suppose most of ya'll are led here via SMS. So if it's possible, please help me forward that SMS to all our friends. It doesn't matter, the more the merrier, alrite?

Now... I'd really appreciate it if you can make it to my birthday party this year.. It's been my wish all along.. You shall be the best birthday present I'll ever receive if you ever appear in front of me.. Your presence will change everything.. Everything.. The memories will be etched onto my heart.. Forever...

Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence - Ryuichi Sakamoto.

Regards,

-MXV-

If Today Was Your Last Day

This is the last day of the year 2008, and of course there are celebrations, right? I'm taking this opportunity to share countdown pictures & videos at Hulu Langat.. And then there'll be a seperate post for New Year's Day. See how hard I'm trying to keep this blog alive? Haha.. Anyway.. Let's start from Gasoline Cafe, the place where we had our dinner before the countdown.

We had steamboat there, but were pretty disappointed by the service. Very, very bad service by the waiters/waitresses. We literally waited 1/2 an hour after the order for the drinks to come, about 1/2 an hour for the pot to be placed onto the table, 15 minutes for the stove to be lit up, and roughly another 1/2 an hour for the dishes to be on our table. Heck, even the bill came 10 minutes after I requested for it, and after three times of reminding the waiter. It was RM 157.20, I paid RM 160 & left them to keep the change. I don't wanna wait another 1/2 an hour for the RM 2.80.

Chua & Chan.

This is the regular couple in my blog, no need for introductions. =D

Kati with Matrix-effect?

Hmm...

Looks good..

We reached at 8 P.M., started eating at 9 P.M. or so & finished everything by 11:30 P.M.. 2 & 1/2 hour on a dinner is a waste of time. Sigh..

The entire place was crowded. I've never seen the hill so packed with people before. Every single restaurant up there is full, with no tables available if reservations are not made earlier. There are at least 50-100 people on the look out tower alone; I wonder if it had enough strength to support the weight of a few elephants. Heh. Collapse, my dear!!

Random~

My goodness..

Can you see Koh? Cos' I can't see his EYES!! Hahaha..

Okay, 2 videos. 1 bad take, but hilarious. Another 1 with the fireworks. Enjoy.

Do you hear Chan's voice in the background? LoL.

Fireworks... I'm sorry if the video is a bit shaky, because I did not bring my tripod and those creeps are pushing around behind me, together with a bad sore on my right arm after holding the camera up for so long.

With that and a song, I end the last post for this year. Happy New Year to all of MX-Lair's readers, and all the best in 2009. Forgive me if there are any mistakes that I've done, for I'm just a human and a human cannot be perfect. Year 2008 was a challenging year for everyone, so let's learn from our faults & use the experiences to improve our lives in 2009.

If Today Was Your Last Day - Nickelback.

-MXV-

Living On Video

I had an unpleasant experience with one of my friends today, but let's just leave that aside & move on with what I did today. Watched Ip Man, again. This time with Lum & Nicholas. The movie is presented in dual-dialect in Malaysia; emphasizing the usage of Mandarin & Cantonese rather than Mandarin only, which is the primary language/dialect for Chinese movies in Singapore. But it was rather disappointing; some parts of the Malaysian version is censored & cut by the Board of Censorships, altering the storyline & confusing the audience at the same time. Why do they have to censor/cut them? I still don't understand...

The Christmas tree at the main entrance of Pavilion.

Decorations in the middle of Pavilion..

Then we went for a stroll around the mall and came to a Jaguar showroom. The cars are beautiful! I wish I could own one, if I'm rich enough. Huhu.. The XJ & XF, luxury cars that I'll choose over Mercedes & BMW, just for the sense of uniqueness. I love the XF, a sports luxury sedan that have the Aston Martin look at it's rear end. LoL.

XJ & the XKR.

My favourite~ XF.

Went to the look-out point again, but this time with my new camera. More pictures on the way.

What a waste of electricity. xD

Finally, a nice picture..

I like this one.

Okay, okay. Ending post. Going out. Living On Video - Pakito.

-MXV-

Believe

All hell broke loose!! Parents scolded me for driving to Genting, telling me about how dangerous it is bla bla bla.. They were so noisy that our next door neighbour thought there was a fight going on & decided to call the police to patrol the area. Yeap, that serious. I don't see why do they have to be so angry about it; I already asked for their permission on the day before & after 1/2 an hour of lecturing, they allowed me to go.

I'm not giving a damn about that. Here's the video & pictures that I've promised last night.

Notice the black Estima at around 4:00. I was so close to it, squashed between the road divider & Estima. Luckily the driver slowed down, I accelerated & got out of the near-collision situation. Phew. The noise heard is not any paint-transfer or knocking noise; it's the ABS.

Pics next, tons to upload. Man, I can't live with Streamyx anymore. P1 WiMax anyone??

Had our dinner at Gohtong Jaya, Thai-style fried rice, Cantonese-style noodles & Hokkien-style fried noodles. LoL. 3 styles in 1 day, you don't often get the opportunity to do that. xD Kati smiling, posing with his Heineken. I still couldn't believe that I actually drank & drove after that.
Dangerous, and there shall not be a second time.

A GTR, again. Spotted at the parking lot behind the outdoor theme park. I wonder how could someone be so rich to leave their expensive sports car parked at somewhere so dark & prone to car-theft? Next to it is an Evo X, both Singaporean cars.


Proudly posing for MX's Lair.

First World Hotel, Lobby.

Posers.

Random~

The white-smokish thing in the picture; it's fog. So misty & foggy that even taking pictures is a hard job.

Ice-cream, outside at main entrance. Are we mad? YES!!

And some snooker after that.

I'm not a very fillial son, of course. And so I went out for another yum cha session despite getting scolded by my parents earlier. Who cares, man? Many ex-classmates showed up, and of course, some with new partners. Pictures on the way...

Can you see his pimples? If yes, then welcome to DSC-T500's world. xD

Yip, Koh & Lum.

Sita.. Somebody call the ghostbusters!!! LoL.

Lum & How.

Ng & Koh. Posers UNCENSORED!!

How & Nicholas, fondling with each others' nipples & enjoying every moment of it.

One of the best tonight.

Look at how cheL' & Elaine are focusing on the camera, with Kevin & Nicole focusing on each other at the background. Hahah!!

And then here's a video for tonight, just in case if there's anyone that didn't make it into any pictures that I've snapped. Except me, of course. I don't fancy taking my own pictures, which almost certainly mean I'm not a camwhore.

Finally, all pictures & videos uploaded. Zzz..

It's good to know that most of them are doing well, some working, some living the siu yeh's life just like me. Also, the rumours of Elaine & her new boyfriend is no longer a hoax. LoL. It's true and official; she brought him to meet us today. There, the guy in yellow. It felt weird & awkward, but I'm happy for her. Of course, that doesn't free me from the pain. Let me be a little poetic tonight, alright? In Bahasa Malaysia, I favour.

Hatiku terasa pilu, bagai seribu jarum menusuk-nusuk.
Ku menghargai apa mu tinggalkan,
Memori yang tidak pernah ku abaikan.
Tiada apa lagi yang ku harapkan,
Selain mu dilupakan..

It's been a long time since the last I used Malay language, so there might be some flaws on the single-paragraph poem, but please don't complain.

Going to sleep with tears of joy & sadness, my feelings are all mixed up. I dare not admit that I'm sad. Time to look at life more as a playground rather than a job, a chore.

Gonna watch Ip Man again tomorrow, leaving Wangsa Maju at 12 P.M.. Call me up before that if you wanna join the fun. For now, I'm ending this post. Wish all of my readers a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.. Wait, New Year is still a few days away.. Hmm.. Plans? Will update ya'll with it soon..

Believe - Cher.

-MXV-