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Sunday, May 31, 2009

Love Story

A token of appreciation... From KLIA?

Was at the airport this morning. There was a power shortage at the exit of the parking lot, one of the guards there removed the metal-pole to allow motorists to exit, so I got the chance to keep this orange lil' token. Heck, if i knew there was a power shortage I won't even bother to pay at the autopay machine. RM 4.50 wouldn't do much difference to the KLIA managements.

Ya' know, there's no difference in between of the feeling of dying & the feeling of speeding at 160-180 KM/H, & feeling sleepy & falling asleep at the same time. Well at least that's what I inadvertently discovered today. I was driving home this morning, feeling sleepy because I slept at 2.30 A.M., & woke up at 4.45 A.M.. I set my foot down, was doing close to 180 KM/H & I fell asleep. See, even at that kind of speed I can fall asleep. Even the speed demon is getting tired & bored of speeding. All I wanted to do at that very moment is to get home as soon as possible & sleep my ass off. During the whole journey of coming back from the airport, I fell asleep for 4 times, and I remembered closing my eyes for more than 3 seconds in 1 of the 4 times. I know, I know. It's people like me that causes major accidents on the road..

Reached home, slept till about 5 P.M..

I'm feeling really, really lonely now.. Feeling empty..

Love Story - Rain.

-MXV-

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Feel Good Inc.

Yeap, feeling good is what most, if not, all the youngsters of today are seeking for. Clubbing, smoking, alcohol & drugs. But before I get into the main topic, there's something that I wanna share with all of you..


Yeah, I bought a new phone for myself. I was offered a deal, actually.. The original price for the phone now in the market is about RM 599, but someone I know offered me a rock-bottom price, which I will not reveal as it might cause some discomfort to my blog readers.. xD

So, what is it? It's a 2.0 MP camera flip phone, with an additional VGA camera on the inside for 3G video calling, as well as a memory slot supporting up to 4GB of Micro SD. In this case, however, a 1-GB Micro SD memory card comes with the package. Yep, it's the not-so-new Motorola RAZR MAXX V6 Ferrari Limited Edition. Package includes the usual stuffs; a 12-month warranty card, battery charger, headphones, phone-PC cable, a Motorola keychain and of course, a Ferrari Red Limited Edition pouch.


So what the Motorola team did to the ordinary RAZR MAXX V6 was, they stuck a Ferrari Scuderia logo on to the top front of the phone, a Ferrari theme with special tones, & TONS of pictures of Ferrari cars. I'm not kidding.

Sorry for the blur image. Picture taken with my W980's crappy 3.2 MP camera.

And oh, they printed the word 'Ferrari' on the back of the phone, too.

One of the most prominent feature of Motorola's RAZR series would be the 'thickness' of the phones. Erm, it's supposed to be slim, but the difference of the thickness between this phone & Sony's W980 is..well, it's hard to see. Maybe around ±0.1 mm?

Side view.

Frontal view, typical Motorola RAZR design.

I shouldn't complain much about the phone as the price is unreasonably low, and it's NEW. Acquired this phone as a 3rd phone, after my W980 and B110, Hotlink & uMobile. This one here will be carrying a new Celcom sim card. Inform me if you want my Celcom number. Hahaha.

Okay, enough about my new phone. Back to the main topic..

Clubbing, anyone?

It's weird, but even in my late teen venturing into my 20s, I might possibly never understand the fun of nightlife involving hard, thrashing music, cigarettes, alcohol & drugs. What's the fun in it? Not to mention the things that I've seen in places like this; girls getting groped in the dark, strangers or sometimes even friends spiking drinks, couples getting high & getting it on in the toilet, they actually set this perception in my mind that clubbing is an activity for the jobless & lifeless. No offence to friends of mine who are avid clubbers, it's just what I think.

But seriously, why? Why clubbing, smoking, drinking & drug abuse when the cash could be better spent for something else? An investment, perhaps? Everything in a club is over-priced. Hard liquor, especially. A bottle of J.D. or Chivas would easily fetch over RM 200-300 in a club, almost double the price paid for the same thing in most supermarkets. Point one clarified; it's not cheaper to drink at a club. And you risk getting your drinks spiked too.

The essence & atmosphere of clubbing usually consists of heavy cigarette smoke, heavy alcohol smell, loud music, & people dancing on a floor smeared with vomit. Let's just say that a girl were to go clubbing just for the music & dance.. I'm sorry, but I don't seem to be able to get this off my mind; I've seen guys, total strangers, grabbing girls in clubs, 7 times in a single night. I don't care what ya'll are going to say, I just wanna make my second point clear. Be careful, girls, if you were to ever set foot into places like this.

Third and the last point. Drugs are simply so common among clubbers nowadays. Ecstasy? Ice? Heroine in Perillys cigarettes? Some clubbers desperately seek ways to get high quicker & faster than simply drinking, they resort to drugs. Now, it's perfectly alright if they wanna spoil their own life by taking drugs, but it seems that they're also using it on their peers by secretly mixing drugs into their drinks or cigarettes. Drugs causes addiction & dependance, and when used in large quantity, they put one's health in risk.

I've seen shits happening to friends that I care about a lot, people around me who matters & means a lot to me, and I don't want more of them to get into these.

Feel Good Inc. - Gorillaz.

-MXV-

Friday, May 22, 2009

Angel

Alright.. As promised, the pictures after the fixing of the car.. Too bad though I didn't took any pictures of the 'after-crash', just didn't have the chance to do so. Camera wasn't with me, phone battery low, pathetic.

Anyway, it cost me roughly around RM 1.1k to get the job done. They've replaced the bumper, knocked the fender & hood, replaced the broken headlamp & resprayed the whole front of the car. So.. Yeah, it looked as if it just rolled out of the factory. New, shiny & flawless.

Good as new. The middle part of the bumper is now originally black; it's not sprayed black or whatsoever. Which means.. Only the sides are sprayed pearl white.

New front bumper.

The new, original, smoked SE headlamp does sparkle.

Haven't seen that gleam in a very long time. Welcome back, WRG.

Err...? LoL. This has got nothing to do with the accident.. Just showing off my subwoofer.. XD


Actually, I got my car back on Thursday, but I've delayed this post till today. Oh, and as for Tzu Woei & Jun Yew, I wish you guys farewell & best of lucks in furthering your studies at Kampar. Study hard, folks.

I've got plenty to talk about, plenty to blog about, but I'm simply feeling too lazy to type them out. Maybe in the following post, you'll find me talking about the youths today with their lifestyle; smoking, drinking, clubbing, taking drugs & so on. I don't know, I just felt that there're too many people around me that I care about that does all that I've mentioned. Disappointing, I know. But they just wouldn't understand. Label me as a old-fashioned person in my late teen, but I'll be raising the awareness to remind them young people that what they're doing now does more harm than good to themselves.

To be continued...

Angel - Sarah McLachlan.

-MXV-

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Dead And Gone

Something interesting, you said, Jun Yew? I do have some in store..

I've got into an accident.

Interesting enough?

No photos taken, but I can tell you guys what actually happened 2 days ago, on Monday, May 18 2009. I was going home from British Council as my exam was actually held there. It happened somewhere near the Titiwangsa Monorail station, where I rear-ended a van that emergency braked to a complete halt, what for, I don't know. I couldn't brake in time & crashed right into the back of the van. Partially because my brakes failed me, which means I'll have to replace my brake pads & rotors as soon as my car returns from the workshop.

The crash was not exactly bad, the engine is still running well after the accident, the HID kits survived the impact, the radiator did not leak one bit. But, the fender was dented so badly that the door on the driver side can't be opened. The hood was literally folded into half, the bumper smashed into pieces & miraculously, my number plate was fine. Fine as in not a single scratch. Weird? Maybe. (Psst! Buy my number on Magnum & Toto!! Who knows, it might be a grand prize-winner?)

Total cost of repairing, knocking, repainting, replacing new headlamps & workmanship = around RM 1400-1800. Actual figure unknown as it's my dad's mechanic. Argh...

3 days time, & I shall post the pictures of my car after the repairs & all.

I'm starting to wonder if all the accidents that I saw & nightmares that I had over the past entire week were hints to this. I saw 5-6 accidents over the past 1 week, & getting dreams of dying in an accident. The dream repeated for like 2-3 times, & it was rather scary because the accident happened exactly like in my dream, minus the death.

Hmm.. At least I'm still alive, right?

No, no.. I'm not Dead & Gone yet.. o.O

Dead & Gone - T.I. feat. Justin Timberlake.

-MXV-

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I Wanna Know

Yes Ms. Christina.. I haven't heard from you for a long time. How have things been for you? I thought of replying you in the comment box, but after a while I just thought that it's also quite a good reason for me to make a new post.

So.. Yeah, I'm in the middle of my 6-month medical foundation studies. I'll be leaving soon, in September; that's if everything goes well and the intake is not full. How have you been? Still teaching in TARC? It's surprising that you still remember my blog link though. Hahaha.

Hmmm.. Weight factor. Guess what? I've lost 2 KGs. No lunch, only bread & eggs for breakfast & dinner. Gym every single day for 2 hours. 4 days, 2 KGs. It's hard, really hard to overcome the temptations for all the good food around me. Be strong, MX... Be strong.

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Yeah, oh yeah
Alright, oh, oh, oh

It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm
Everytime you come around me I get weak, oh yeah
Nobody ever made me feel this way, oh
You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know

I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more
I'd like to know what makes you cry
So I can be the one who always makes you smile

Girl he never understood what you were worth, hmm no
And he never took the time to make it work
(You deserve more loving, girl)
Baby I'm the kind of man who shows concern, yes I do, oh
Anyway that I can please you let me learn
So I wanna know

I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more
I'd like to know what makes you cry
So I can be the one who always makes you smile

Tell me what I gotta do to please you
Baby anything you say I'll do
Cause I only wanna make you happy
From the bottom of my heart, it's true

I wish that I could take a journey through your mind, alright
And find emotions that you always try to hide babe, oh
I do believe that there's a love you wanna share, oh, oh
I'll take good care of you lady, have no fear, oh
So I wanna know

I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more
I'd like to know what makes you cry
So I can be the one who always makes you smile

Tell me what I gotta do to please you
Baby anything you say I'll do
Cause I only wanna make you happy
From the bottom of my heart, it's true

I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more
I'd like to know what makes you cry
So I can be the one who always makes you smile

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I Wanna Know - Joe.

-MXV-

Monday, May 11, 2009

It's Been A While

At least one of my major problems is solved for now. She decided to leave me for good. Ahh yes, I'm dumped again. I'm relieved that this whole thing is finally solved, but I'm still feeling all mixed up & fucked up about it, mainly because things didn't really go as I hope after all the effort, time & unconditional love put into this whole relationship. I'm feeling happy for her, at least she got through her own dilemma; but I'm feeling sad, angry, depressed, tensed-up, all at the same time. The memories are gonna kill me & make each & every single day of my life miserable, for I don't know how long. I'm just not that kind of perfect boyfriend material that girls would be looking for. I SUCK at being a boyfriend.

I'm just so tired of everything already. I'm tired. Life just felt so damn miserable for me. I don't know what I'll do without her, but I hope & wish that life won't be too harsh for me after this. So what that I love her? I just suck. I'm worthless.

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And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own 2 feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I could say I loved myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up, just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone & fucked thing up again, again....

Why must I feel this way...
Just make this go away...
Just one more peaceful day

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem, to be
I know its me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry

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If you're reading this.. I'd like to apologise for everything, and I mean, everything. I'm sorry. And I love you. I do. I really do.

God knows what I'll be doing next. I'm just so disappointed with myself. Everything doesn't feel right. I ruined everything that I've gained & treasured, all with my own bare hands. I've not felt this emotional, this fucked-up in a very, very long time. If suicide is the remedy, Menara Alpha would be the medicine. There just won't be enough apologizes; in fact there's nothing that I can do to make you forgive me.

Feeling so devastated right now. I'm just hoping that time & reassurance is what I need to get me through this..

Behind all the fake smiles, a million worries lies, a thousand questions troubles me. Will I ever be the same again?

It's Been A While - Staind.

-MXV-

Change The World

Felt kinda fucked up today. Presentation was OK, but my partner screwed it all up. The font colour blends with the background colour, making them hard to read. Everything was prepared the night before, & it was my duty to present more & prepare the printed materials.

Luckily I came across this song, this very familiar song that dates back to my childhood era. The 90s? Maybe late 80s, I don't remember. Heard it playing at Cold Storage & it instantly put the smile back on my face, cos' it just brought back so many sweet memories. Here's the lyrics to it, hope ya'll enjoy it as much as I do.

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If I could reach the stars, I'd pull one down for you
Shine it on my heart, so you could see the truth
That this love I have inside, is everything it seems
But for now I find, it's only in my dreams

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby, if I could, change the world

If I could be king, even for a day
I'd take you as my queen, I'd have it no other way
And our love will rule, in this kingdom we have made
Till then I'd be a fool, wishin' for the day

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby, if I could, change the world


Baby, if I could change the world

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby, if I could, change the world


Baby, if I could change the world...


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Change The World - Eric Clapton.

-MXV-

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Touch My Hand

Yeah, so here's a specially dedicated post for you, since it's your birthday. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! Heh.. Since when you became a mom, Janice? Not really specially dedicated for you, partially. The song is dedicated to you anyway. Haha.. Happy Birthday, Janice, the OUTSTANDING Malaysian.. LoL.

I've been going to the gym almost everyday for the past few weeks, at least 1 & 1/2 hour each session. Why? Weight factor. Size factor. Darn.. It's tiring, but of course at the same time rewarding as I can sleep better at night after all the tiring workouts. So.. Anyone there wanna join me? Nah, don't think so. None of you guys would have the time anyway.

Bored. Emotional. Depressed. Tensed-up.

Touch My Hand - David Archuleta.

-MXV-

Friday, May 8, 2009

In The Air Tonight

The weight factor: Yes, it is depressing, and I've been trying my so darn best to shed off some weight, but no effect on the scale so far. Sigh..

The love factor: Nope, it's not solved yet.

The cash factor: Yeap, I'm still broke, especially after burning about RM300 for a pair of Lee Cooper spectacles frame & lenses.

The exam factor: So-so prepared, hopefully I can do well or just burn me in hell if I don't.

I'm so in the mood for this song right now.. By Phil Collins.. Wiki it up, and dig the urban legend behind the song & lyrics. Nice song, anyway.

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I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord
I've been waiting for this moment, all my life, Oh Lord
Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord

Well, if you told me you were drowning
I would not lend a hand
I've seen your face before my friend
But I don't know if you know who I am
Well, I was there and I saw what you did
I saw it with my own two eyes
So you can wipe off the grin, I know where you've been
It's all been a pack of lies

And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord
I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, Oh Lord
I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord
And I've been waiting for this moment all my life, Oh Lord, Oh Lord

Well I remember, I remember don't worry
How could I ever forget, it's the first time, the last time we ever met
But I know the reason why you keep your silence up, no you don't fool me
The hurt doesn't show; but the pain still grows
It's no stranger to you or me

And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord...
I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, Oh Lord
I can feel it in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord
And I've been waiting for this moment all my life, Oh Lord

I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord...
I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, Oh Lord
I can feel it in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord
And I've been waiting for this moment all my life, Oh Lord, Oh Lord..

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In The Air Tonight - Phil Collins.

-MXV-

Friday, May 1, 2009

The Unforgiven

The Unforgiven - Gregorian.

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New blood joins this earth
And quickly he's subdued
Through constant pain disgrace
A young boy learns his rules

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
A young man struggles on and on he's known
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will they'll take away

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

They dedicate their lives
To running all of his
He tries to please them all
This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
He's battled constantly
This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares
The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

You labeled me
I'll label you
So I dub thee unforgiven

Never free
Never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

You labeled me
I'll label you
So I dub thee unforgiven

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Some Gregorian chants, love it.

-MXV-